Purr- fect Feline

Time After Time - Cyndi Lauper

2010-12-19T00:48:00.003+08:00

Song randomly popped in my head.
Dark Metal, erratic

Pr"E"y

A fever that keeps burning and will never subside
A chill that wraps around so tightly every night
Memories that diminishes bit by bit along every passing time
Sensations desensitized
Line of thoughts got blocked
Shattered pieces that could never be retrieved
In state of unrest
Unable to attain equilibrium
Lifeless eyes that see nothing but preys
Feasting upon negativity to fill up the empty soul
Never satiated, hungry and cold
Solo, Lone, Independent, Proud
Demon hiding in an Angel shell
Beware, Oh beware
Let's Visit Wonderland~
Too late to run, Bewitch and Enchanted
Take joy in entrapment
Smoldering pangs of hunger
Beware, Oh beware
Oh Master, Beware~

Time Passed, Leaving Behind

2010-11-23T00:55:00.003+08:00

Gradually forgotten alot of things that were once important to me.
Once an impossible task but everything was already left hanging and stuck.
Questions I never had the courage to ask.
Would it have made a difference if I did?
A fist that was held clenched and never loosened.
Opened up to unveal nothing.
I start to wonder of your existence.
Did our picture frames ever adjoint?
Places I've been too. Seem to have been or yet to been?
A yesterday I remembered so clearly.
Did Yesterday really happened?
A provoking pain that never stopped bothering me.
It has left or have I gotten numb and unfeeling.
It's the latter. I'm stronger than before.
What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.
However its so depressing. Lost the essence of being part human.

Forbidden Words

2010-10-27T00:04:00.002+08:00

Random Thoughts:

Never say "I Love You" to anyone if you cannot love a person from beginning till the end. A man(referring to human both male and female) must be responsible for his/her words and actions. Eating your own words will decay the purest heart and give birth to a tainted soul.

A pure soul and heart is neither gullible nor naive. It is the most holy, as pure as a new born.

Breaking a trust, is the birth of more evils and degeneration to come. Distortion becomes the facet for one to compete for survival. (in all aspects of life)

Only FOOLS think that their sins can be purified, redeemed or lessened by believing and following some imaginary human figure. A sinner will always be a sinner.

Light is Dark and Dark is Light, because they coexist. Truth is Lie and Lie is Truth, it's just a matter of perception of the majority.

Reaching Out to Grasp

2010-10-25T23:17:00.004+08:00

Yet another dream. What was I dreaming? I couldn't remember.
I was reaching out my hand, but in a dilemma whether to grasp on.
Yet another tear escaped without control.
What was I dreaming again?
Tearing silently to myself in the moment when emotions hit me.
What was I feeling then?
If I had held on, would it make a difference?
Is it too late to reach out or grasp on anymore.
Lately I kept thinking. Why do I keep having these distraughting dreams?
I've lost my ability to cry with a conscious mind.
I know it. Crying won't bring back anything.
Suppressing myself too much? Stressing out at work?
Falling sleepy easily and falling into deeper sleep more often and longer hours.
Am I escaping? Am I dying?
Searching for a cure. Although I don't know what will remedy.
I am a bird in search of the limitless sky?
Once I had a sky, I thought I could fly freely.
I met a cloud, which really fascinated me.
Followed and followed but the cloud eventually dissipated.
Chasing and searching aimlessly for the missing cloud.
Another bird flew by. Showed me a tree hole where I can perch on to watch the sky.
But I was not satisfied. I did not share the same ideal.
Watching was not contenting for me. I had to fly.
I know clouds come and go, but I'm still so fascinated by clouds.
Always changing. Always moving. Around me. Protecting me.

你不知到的事 by 王力宏

2010-10-10T22:22:00.007+08:00

Original Lyrics
蝴蝶眨几次眼睛才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星但几颗会落地
我飞行但你坠落之际
很靠近还听见呼吸
对不起我却没捉紧你

你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像倾盆大雨
碎了满地在心里清晰

你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是你不知道的事

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星但几颗会落地
我飞行但你坠落之际
很靠近还听见呼吸
对不起我却没捉紧你

你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像倾盆大雨
碎了满地在心里清晰

你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是你不知道的事

我飞行但你坠落之际

你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像倾盆大雨
碎了满地在心里清晰

你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是你不知道的事

My take at translating these beautiful lyrics. Thank you for guiding Puma home with this song. I will remember this for life.

How many times does a butterfly blink
Before it learns to fly?
Countless stars scattered across the night sky,
but how many will fall?
Even as I soared while you descended
It's so close I can still hear you breathe
I'm sorry, I couldn't hold on to you

Chorus
You didn't know why I had to leave you
Even though I couldn't bear to let you cry
Your tears overflowed like a downpour
Shattering the grounds, piercing my heart

You didn't know why I had to be cruel
Keeping my distance and staying out of sight
There is just so much, that you didn't know

Even as I moved on while you fell apart

Love means Love, Hate means Hate

2010-09-16T00:45:00.010+08:00

Can't believe it but after so many year I still LOVE HANAMICHI SAKURAGI from the manga SlamDunk. Oh Boy, he is jus too adorable. =x

His child-like innocence, perseverance and straight-forward character really made him stood out as a main character in SLAMDUNK!

He is so likable~~ *pinches his cheek* If I needed a friend to go crazy with, it will definitely be him. LOL

The mixture of silliness, pride, violence and gluttony only made his character more animated and lively. Reading SLAMDUNK back then in secondary school, he was really a source of motivation to me. He does have wonderful traits
we can learn from. Never Give Up!!

HANABISHI RECCA is just a normal and simple boy, nothing specially attractive or cute compared to SAKURAGI, but nevertheless, he has captured my heart too. It all began with his unique ability to conjure flames out of no where. LOL

Ok, it was due to the 9 dragons that cohabited in his body. A ninja boy from another dimension whose tribe has the special ability to conjure flames. These 9 dragons in his body are pretty much souls of his ancestors and father who had incompleted task or longings to kins which caused them to tranform into these fire dragons. *ok, I will stop here before I retell the whole manga*

I was fascinated by his unique ability and the dragons' power. Well as the manga progressed, the mangaka did improve his drawing on Recca. Boyish, determined and focused looking boy with a dash of cat-like cuteness. Was so capitvated by these burning flames of his that decided to name myself after him and then now I'm Recca too.~^^~ His passion and drive to conquer mountain after mountain is similar to that of SAKURAGI's too. Perhaps that's why I love him too.

Now GINTA here is drawn by the same manga artist as Flame of Recca, thus the resemblance. This could be one of the reasons I got attracted to him too. Let's say, Ginta is the younger and mini version of Recca. Coupled with his extremely cute cat-like face, I just fell in love immediately.

What's more, I really love reading books and manga's related to fantasy. MÄR just blew me off my feet. The rich display of creativity in the transformation of his weapon made me just fall deeper in LOVE with him. Again another character with the never say die attitude. It's something that really attracts me. I kept a tail back in my school days because I was so inspired by his hairstyle. Well for those who play FF7 or know Advert Child will notice he has this Cloud-like hair style too. Oh yea and that bring me to my next favourite character, he is none other than CLOUD STRIFE.

I love this guy too. *whispers* He is on my desktop display at my
workplace. =D I stare at him everyday and he looks cooling back at me in those cool shades of his. HAHA

The reason why I started to notice him was because of his buster sword. My NUMBER ONE favourite weapon in all the FF series. I remember the days back in JC... erm... I kept doodling him and his sword on every table I sat at. His cool composure and baby-like innocent faced is definitely A* for me. Besides he has this special aura emitting from him, this mysterious sadness in his eyes.

Similarly, he too, tries his very best, gives his 100% or more to and commits to his task. Just like Jay Chou's song, "认真的男人最魅力".
Thus, I've become his captive too.
Cloud looks so bishie, if I could I would wanna look like him like this every other day, though I think my hair will give way and fall off due to the bleaching and crazy loads of hair product. Not to mention, the time needed to stylized this hairdo.

SQUALL LEONHEART! What's his attraction? I tell you it's the scar on his face. And he looks most particularly attractive and sexy in this post with his gunblade and half face.

Oh yes, a gunblade is my 2nd favourite weapon in FF. The least cool weapon in FF history i would say it's the microphones... in FFX-2 songstress sphere. He may have a cool, clam composure and whatever attitude but at the end of the day he still aces his missions.

Speak of a man with scar on his face, RUROUNI KENSHIN is another hot guy not to miss. Flaming red hair, emotionless and cold poker face and his secret almighty and powerful sword techniques that slowly weakens his petite little body.

Definitely another man with a mission, plays the bad guy for the sake of a revolution. Maker of peace or harbinger of Death? I let you decide for yourself.

Ok, nothing to do with red hair or scars anymore but the samurai-fetish. Yes, I love the samurai costumes.
AKIRA and HOUTARU are my favourites in the series Samurai Deeper Kyo.

Akira is special because he blinded himself to climb greater heights and it's amazing how he could duel so well despite being blind. His technique "梦冰月天" (a skill similar to frozen prison, encase something in ice) is so beautiful and merciless. He is acts like an ice man, but deep down hot-blooded and passionate.

Houtaru is a dreamy and sleepy fellow but way more heartless, cruel and stubborn than Akira. Skills are on par with Akira or maybe better. What attracted me to him was his use of flame in his battling techniques. "Hellflame" and even fire phoenix. Also, the use of "blood mask", similar to a ritual to power up.

Last but not least all these guys share the ultimate same traits of passion and perseverance + super good looks, that's why I LOVE LOVE LOVE them~! I ended up writting so much. =p

Dishonest Food Vendor with Bad Customer Service in Changi Village Food Centre

2010-09-14T21:52:00.005+08:00

3 kind of egg vegetable Dish 三王蛋元菜



It's dinner time, so I met up with my family for dinner and we decided to go the Changi Village's Food Centre which was nearest to my home.

It's not the first time we have been here to have a meal, but it will definitely be out last time patronizing this stall. The stall's location is as stated above on the receipt,

Changi Seafood Crab Specialist Blk 3 Changi Village Road #01-63 Singapore 500003

The first time we had out dinner at the exact same stall was about 2 months ago. It was an unpleasant experience because we were bugged constantly to foot the bill throughout the course of our meal. My family and I couldn't even have our meal in peace. So my father questioned about their "bad service", and so their reply was quite acceptable and reasonable as they had incidents with customers who ran off after the meal without paying.

*we are extremely tolerant and reasonable people*

2 other groups of Chinese patrons who were seated at the neighbouring tables were so pissed off with the incessant bugging from the waitress that they paid their bills and stormed off leaving the food untouched on the table. Those food looked expensive, there were shells, prawns, crabs, BBQ sambal stingray and other seafood.

Today's second encounter with the similar service standards, or even worst, really left a horrible impression on me. Yes, they hurried us to foot the bill immediately again upon having done serving the dishes we ordered. If they were so worried, they could have changed the system to paying right after we ordered our food but they didn't. They chose to interrupt in the middle of our meal again.

This action is considered a taboo in chinese customs as it indirectly implies that the stall owner looks down on their customers, and seemingly suggesting that the patrons are poor and they can't pay up or they will run off after having eaten the meal. Now do you understand why the previous 2 groups of chinese patrons left in anger. Their way of customer service is insensitive to the traditional chinese cultures and customs. Ironically, the food stall belongs to a Chinese. Perhaps some modern Chinese.

Apart from the taboo to chinese customs, it's common sense and basic manners and etiquette to not interrupt others when they are having a meal... You learn that in kindergartens!!!

Ok, so my dad looks through the receipt and lo and behold!!!! $15 for a plate of stir fry Chinese spinach with wolfberries. Now my dad questions,

" It says here on the receipt that it's 三王蛋元菜 (a vegetable dish cooked with normal egg, salted egg and century egg).
We are having stir fry vegetable with wolfberries here *points* Did you make a mistake?"

The waitress said, " Oh it's cooked using the essence of the 3 kinds of egg!! So it's still 三王蛋元菜!!"

I was HORRIFIED!! She was lying blatantly before me!! And I retorted, " Do you even see ANY TRACE of EGGS in there?" *stare WIDED EYE at the waitress* So they came up with a new and futuristic way of cooking eggs in their shell and yet squeezed the essence of the egg out or did they change it to hard boiled egg, hard boiled salted egg and hard boiled century egg and reused and kept it in a soup stock?? Please google a picture of a 3 egg spinach dish,and in any vaguest picture you can see the 3 kinds of EGGS!!! (look at the picture I googled right at the top)

She replies, " but the chef says it's 三王蛋元菜, so it is." Yea, someone else might have ordered it but definately not us and we did not order nor ate that dish and we still had to pay up that extra $9 for the bogus dish. And you know what, the Hor Fun which cost only $6 had sliced fish, sotong, prawn and meat. I would have shoved them into their graves if my dad hadn't stopped me. * I have Authorized authoritative power*

The issue here isn't paying the extra money, but how dishonest and unscrupulous these stall holders get now just to cheat the money out of their customers. Remember the Famous Tiger Prawn incident at Novena Food?!

Well, at the least if you want to venture into a service industry which depend heavily on customers, make your customers happy. Only good food won't keep us. Learn the etiquette and be careful of taboos.

Can you meet me half way - Black Eyed Peas

2010-07-29T00:33:00.002+08:00

Can you meet me half way (I'll meet you halfway)
Right at the boarderline
That's where i'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

Let's walk the bridge, to the other side
Just you and I (just you and I)
I will fly, i'll fly the skies, for you and I (for you and I)
I will try, until I die, for you and i, for you and i, for for you and i,
For for you and i, for for you and i, for you and i

Can you meet me half way
Can you meet me half way
Can you meet me half way
Can you meet me half way
Meet me half way, right at the boarderline
That's where i'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

I tried. I'm devastated. I regenerated. I act well. Whatever I do is meaningless and futile. Your existence is my poison.
Fuming and raging, the cursed hell fire grows. Until you incinerate, I shall not be satisfied. - Rising Phoenix

Fade Away by Me

2010-06-05T21:03:00.005+08:00

Yet another composition which popped into my head, penned it all down b4 I forget it. The ironical thing is that I'll remember wadever melody I composed but not memories. =p

Fade Away

Got startled awake in the middle of the night
Snapped open my eyes to find
that I have been crying all the time
It didn't at all seem any real to me
'Cause I couldn't remember what was
being played out in my dreams

Sometimes~ I just can't remember , the message in my dreams
It's just so hard~ to remember, the times we spent together, you and me...
Fade away, fade away~ Fade away, fade away~
Fade away, fade away~ Fade away, fade away~

Dazing away as I listened to the old clock ticked
Glanced my eyes aside to find
a watch lying at the corner of my desk
The unmoving face stared right back at me
And I just couldn't remember
the times spent together, you and me

Sometimes~ I just can't remember , clips of my memory
It's just so hard~ to remember, the times we spent together, you and me...
Fade away, fade away~ Fade away, fade away~
Fade away, fade away~ Fade away, fade away~

Strolling along in the city crowd
Spinning around to find familiar places
Mirages of cloud seem to fill these spaces
Looking around now I see foreign faces
But I just couldn't remember,
Couldn't remember, couldn't remember
Couldn't REMEMBER!!!!!!!

Sometimes~ I just can't remember , can't remember~
It's just so hard~ to remember, the times we spent together, you and me...
Fade away, fade away~ Fade away, fade away~
Fade away, fade away~ Fade away, fade away~
Fade away, fade away~ Fade away, fade away~
Fade away, fade away~ Fade away, fade away~

Music feel- guitar solo, soft and dreamy , trance like mode

It will never be the same again

2010-05-22T00:45:00.002+08:00

Time moves on and things change everyday, nothing will ever be the same.
Pessimism is for yesterday, optimism is for today and tomorrow.
Forget about the missed stops, and think about the future destinations you have to reach.
Not every destination you see will be the "designated destination", thus you gotta keep
moving on to the next and keep knocking on the next door or opportunity.
Once you threw a chance away, you can't take it back.
The only way left is to work harder and wait for the next to come by.
Set your goals in the front and don't turn to look back, running forward while turning the head back will only cause you to trip and hurt yourself.
There will always be a point of time in life when all good things come to an end, people part ways and set off in different paths thereafter.
It's better to be independent and exist for yourself. Focus on yourself first. Only when you can fully take care of yourself then can you look out for others.
Self above all.

Looks easy, try it yourself.

Haven't been so happy for awhile ~~

2010-04-11T15:52:00.007+08:00

Yesterday, I met up with Ting and Hui Hui after work. I went to get a new pixie hair cut at Chapter 2 to salvage the horrible hair trimming job I received last week at BEDOK INTERCHANGE, WHITE HOUSE. The hairstylist at Chapter 2 was really pleasant and professional, really left me a good impression on Chapter 2's service.

Following that, we had a sumptuous dinner in Xin Wang Cafe. I had a pot of spicy minced pork porrigde and a GIGANTIC STRAWBERRY SNOW ICE LOL (which I didn't manage to finish, sakit hati~~!!!) We had loads of fun taking pics and enjoyed the scenery at esplanade ^^

I clowning all the way~~ wooo huuuu~~

Alive

2010-03-28T13:33:00.007+08:00

I couldn't sleep last night and I was hit by a sudden wave of inspiration to write another song lyrics. Only parts of the melody ring in me, this feels crappier than the previous job. Well but it's in English. I just wrote out what came to mind at the point in time, didn't really edit it. So I'll preview this n then get some sleep hohoho

Presenting ALIVE.

Spacing out in a cold and lonely night
Chill slowly engulfs me from the outside
There's just something here right in me
which is merging into this endless night
Fading out slowly with the light, I'm slowly losing my sight.

All alone hidden and locked away
I listened to the whispers of the silent night
Cold has numbed and paralyzed my senses
even my heart seized to beat from time to time
No longer feeling the beat, am I still alive?~ E I E I E I!

To feel alive, To feel alive
I had to feast on rotting memories
Feeling the pain, To feel alive
Thorns pricking deeper and deeper into me
Aching from all the pain and soaked blood red,
I will know that I'm still alive.

Sometimes I feel like a doll, void of emotions
Long forgotten and casted aside
As cold as ice, as brittle as glass
I just can't move, I just can't breathe
But I'm bursting into tears inside

As time passed by, the morning sun began to rise
Warm rays from the sun stung me hard
making me teary in the eyes
I held my head high and endured
the pain from open wounds
There and then I swore... not to cry~E I E I E I!

To feel alive, To feel alive
I had to feast on rotting memories
Feeling the pain, To feel alive
Thorns pricking deeper and deeper into me
Twisting and struggling, all shattered inside
I need pull through, to stay alive.
But now, I began to realise...
The sun will never rise again, in my life...
The sun will never rise again...

Mood: Zombie-fied , edited lyrics seem to flow much better now

巫师 by me

2010-03-06T13:04:00.006+08:00

巫师作词：陈彩盈

初次遇见你的时侯身体有了触电感觉
自己好像吃错了药看着你竟脸红心跳
天真又爱耍酷的我深信这只是场错觉
但隔了许久又见面心也再次为你起舞
到了如今我才发现你是会施法的巫师
将我建立起的城堡不费力轻易地打碎

我不要我不要被你施下诅咒
可是我可是我已经被你迷惑
放开我放开我请你还我自由
可是我可是我可是我～
无法逃离你给的链锁

原本非常自私的我也开始学会了让步
不管是欢笑或痛苦温暖依燃打动着我
天真又爱耍酷的我开始相信爱地存在
在一起度过地时光转眼变成一场荒境
到了如今我才发现你是会施法的巫师
将我带到梦境乐园眨眼间把一切抹掉

我不要我不要变成你的俘虏
可是我可是我已经被你训服
离开我离开我是种人间折磨
可是我可是我无法逃离链锁

我不要我不要没有你的生活
因为我因为我无法扯断链锁
也许我也许我已经走火入魔
疯狂地咆哮着也要把你拖下地狱的炎火！

It's not perfected yet, subjected to change. At least this is the general idea atm. Music is in the process of composing.

Mood:Mad and Devouring Flames

Ironically, Happy Birthday to Myself lol

2010-03-04T21:57:00.002+08:00

OK, I will sing*type* myself a song today...

Happy Birthday to ME,
Happy Birthday to ME!
Happy Birthday to ME-EEE!!!
Happy Birthday to ME, ME, ME, ME ,ME!!

haha jus being bored, since it's been awhile i updated my blog.

Watched Alice in Wonderland today. Was really great. A nice Self Present too =) *reminds me to believe in the impossible, even if others think u r crazy, BELIEVE IN URSELF*

Daddy treated me to Japanese A la carte~ So full n bloated from sashimi.

I might not be able to have a happy birthday anymore in the future. Oh wells, Bday is jus like any other day anyway =/

Was suddenly inspired to compose a song today. I'm barely 50% done. I have no idea how to go about writing one either, but I'm gonna come up with it somehow. The feeling is just burning in me, and the melody flows in. I hope I won't lose this "feel" b4 my song is completed. LOL

Happy Birthday my friend

2009-10-24T12:19:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to you~
Happy Birthday to you~
Happy Birthday.... Happy Birthday.....
Happy Birthday to you~~~

Lol a day I think I might forget but automatically remember, it's a miracle consider my STM

FKING

2009-09-28T19:39:00.004+08:00

IF I HAD TO BE NAGGED ABT ON WADEVER I LIKE TO POST ON MY OWN BLOG, THEN WAD IS THE PURPOSE OF A PUBLIC BLOG?!

IF ONE WANTS TO READ THEN FINE READ IT! IF IT AFFECTS UR MOOD THEN DON'T B NOSEY N COME HERE TO READ AGAIN! I M NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR UR EMOTIONAL WELL BEING. THE BLOG IS SOLELY FOR MY OWN PURPOSE FOR RELIEVING MYSELF!!!!

MIND UR OWN BUSINESS

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GHyHp7ee7iQ

YOURS SINCERELY

I HOPE U LIKED IT

Dai Wo Zou - Rainie Yang Cheng Ling

2009-09-27T01:53:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I still think back. I tried to stop myself but somehow I would still unconsciously.
Because you might be leaving, I wanted to follow you. However, I know that it is selfish and
a crazy thing to do. But because it was you, I believed and wanted to try hard. Well, I did prepare
myself for the worst.

Ironically, in the end, you did not leave, but I still had to leave you. Why so? Why couldn't I understand you?
or you didn't want me to understand? Was I not giving you enough space? Perhaps it's all too late now.
It is time you needed, so you said.

There is lesser storms clouds now, but occasionally there is still a drizzle. It can't be helped.
I'll do my crying in the rain~(by 5566)

There was only a simple thing I wanted you to do for me, but you didn't. *erased*

The Gaseous State of My life

2008-12-26T20:49:00.002+08:00

To describe my life since young to now, I would believe using the state of matter to describe to be the most apt.

Solid - Living my life unknowingly being protected and living a life according to the plans expected and what every parents wished. Sticking to the rules and laws, clear focused and unmelleable.

Liquid - Secondary sch to Uni. I'm being exposed to all sort of new things, starting to have my own perceptions of my surrounding and losing the clear goal in life. Life starts to get murky and less interesting to me. Though I'm more fluid and mobile, I can't escape the forces that bound me.

Gas - This is the state I'm currently at now. Though versatile, highly energetic but I'm moving in a far too erratic manner. I have lesser to a clear goal, I don't even have 1 in fact. This can be the most promising or the fall of my life if I do not think and plan. I find myself in a crisis. I want to escape... Air is to move freely, but life doesn't work this way. Mb if I compress myself I might be able to compress and capture this potential energy. I still do not wanna leave the free flowing air under the big blue sky. I'm selfish too cos I like to seek refuge at the place I feel most comfortable at.

Me n my boring life, but things get better when ple meet ple. Life is unpredictable...

Turn On the Heat

2008-11-23T18:23:00.002+08:00

WOW!! Ytd was the first paper for my final exams. 1 paper 3 to go.

Sadly, I fked up for my first paper *pouts* But overall, I think i did ok lah.

I wish time stops turning, I really don't want this month to end so soon...

It would probably mean I wont get to stay as a student any longer and i dread the coming >.<

Sometimes I wished things would just stay they way they always do, however it not the way how this world works =x Those ple who are important to me , beside my family members, can be counted using my fingers... Feels pathetic lol

Let's see, we have Ling, Qing, Ting, God Ma, Brother, Ah Boy and my fishy a.k.a Monkey God now.

I espcially wanna thank 6 ple who really made a big impact in my life. These ple are Schmic, Josh, Lawrence,Casey, Angel and Narnia. They are my best gaming pals. Without their life experiences and advices, I thk I would have been unable to move on in life. Sorry, for being harsh on u guys sometimes but I noe u all did it for my good. Thanks for lending me a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on when I needed.

Thanks Yong Ming and Vellos for being such cool god brothers =D Thanks for showering care and concern over me all these years. U guys really made me feel like I have a Big brother to turn to for help and to "sa jiao" too. Although I Havn't been a V nice and well behaved little sis. LOL

Frens come and go, those who aren't in the list don't be too sad. It doesn't mean I've forgetten u. I rmb each and everyone who has contributed to my growth in a way or another. some have hurted me deeply, I have made some into my stepping stones, some have taught me other valuable lessons, while others mostly offered theirs and enjoyed my company.

The main point is , "I never did forget anyone of you". You all will always be in my mind stored away somewhere perhaps.

kind of feels weird, like I'm writting a suicide letter. Well it isn't LOL

Mood: cool blue

Tell me what I See, Hear is all Real please

2008-11-15T00:07:00.004+08:00

Humans can't seem to stop dreaming and hoping, they never learn to give up. How amazing!
I really don't noe what to believe in anymore. If I can just drag my tired self along and recover. If I had more couraged, If I wasn't so afriad of being alone, If I wasn't so weak...

I will make it if u were there to stand by me all along. Too much precious things to lose now.

If the old doesn't go, the new can't come.

I don't wanna regret anymore. Chances only come once. Bias and blinded for too long. I wanna cherish whatever I have now.

Mood: Staring at the Stars, will I see a shooting star tonight?

All Hope Is Not Lost

2008-11-12T12:14:00.002+08:00

Last semester this year, I have to give whatever I can. This is my last chance to create miracles. In some sense, it's really my last chance in this dire period of my life.
Yesterday was a shocking day of my life and also a day I felt so ill =/
Shock = A+ for Sociology Essay
Ill = Stomach so bloated so uncomfortable, felt so sick

Hope Glück will come my way from now on. Wishing upon a lucky star~

Mood: Mewing at the moon

When You Look Me in the Eye by Jonas Brothers

2008-10-31T00:18:00.002+08:00

I've been looking for that someone
I never make it on my own
There's gotta be a million reasons
Why it's true

When you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's alright
When you're right here by my side

When you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes

I'm gonna tell you that I love
In the best way that I can
You're the light that make my darkness disappear

Movin' on, I start to realize
And it's all because you're by my side

When you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's alright
When you're right here by my side

When I hold you in my arms
I know that it's forever
I just got to let you know
I never wanna let you go

When you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
Oh, I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes, oh yeah, ah~

Mood: earth brown

Blank Paper by Shing02 Feat. Murs

2008-10-26T00:03:00.002+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cT5xl4YNwBI

Have Fun with a piece of Blank Paper. Starting from scratch again can be fun too. =D

Mood: head bobbing

It's My Life by Bon Jovi

2008-10-23T14:51:00.003+08:00

Finally, 1 positive post. From today on, I'm gonna break free from the chains.
The sky is so wide, I really don't have to choose to stay down here and wait anymore.
I've waited long enough, it's time for me to live my life again. It's my life!
I feel so light, let me soar into the blue sky~
All I need to do now is overcome GRAVITY and FLY!
Strengthen those lazy wings and FLY~~~

Happy B'day. I will always remember the time we had "JOY, FUN and seasons in the SUN" !

Mood: Graduated

Aspiring Designer

2008-10-10T00:56:00.003+08:00

Was too bored, nothing to do. So I drew this. Thought it looks pretty artistic =3
Ran out of paper so I drew on my own face~~! *lames*

Mood: Spots of many colours, but eventually consumed by the dark hole

Hormone King

2008-09-25T23:29:00.003+08:00

Must be the liquor Ice cream's fault at UDDERS. I feel so high and blood rushing through my veins. LoL The result... EXCESS HORMONAL EXCREATION!!

Mood : Pink and Red

So Twisted and Gruesome, Presenting to you the Little Soldier

2008-09-16T17:19:00.003+08:00

All that should be done is done. No more regrets any longer...
It takes two hands to clap, a lone soldier fighting alone will eventually fall.

It's worth the compliment to have perservered so long. The soldier gained the respect of others. He knows it was just a consolation but deep down inside him it is still meaningless as the mission failed. Despite this, he has to learn to look forward and accept as nothing in life will ever go according to plan. Today, he no longer looks straight just at a path. He lets life into the hands of fate and destiny. He feels so much lighter now that he no longer has to hold on and focus on that 1 mission and task. Now, he searches for a new target and to renew his vigor.

It wasn't escape or giving in, but he has already reached to end of the road. He braved countless storms and conquered every obstacle in the way. This end road is nothing like what he encountered before. It's not something that can be overcomed by guts, will or believe. It's the gate of hell. When it's not the time, it just will not open for whoever.

Mood: clearblue, cool green

Hitori - Mika Nakashima

2008-09-12T22:24:00.003+08:00

We are all delusioned. From the start, all along, we were all alone.
All that happened in the past was a dream.
What was said, What was done. They were all lies.
Why did we have to believe them?
We are living in a world of lies. We obey the lies.
We live by the rule of lies. We are moulded to believe in the lies.
The most ridiculous of all is that till the day we die,
we are all still delusioned by the lie.

However, there is one good thing about it. At least, you can finally
stop living a life of lies.

Mood: dull blue

What You Never Know - Hayley Westenra

2008-09-06T17:29:00.002+08:00

"What You Never Know (Won't Hurt You)"

What you never know won't hurt you

What you never know won't lie

What you never know won't desert you

What you never know won't say goodbye

What you never know won't hurt you

What you never know won't lie

What you never know won't desert you

What you never know won't make you cry

I'm falling for you

My heart's torn in two

I'm falling for you

What you never know won't hurt you

What you never know won't lie

What you never know won't desert you

What you never know - unless you try

I'm falling for you

I just want you to know ... by Backstreet Boys

Because I love you by Shakin Stevens

2008-08-05T00:13:00.003+08:00

Time passed. Months passed. The world continues in it's own revolution. Ironically, I can clearly feel that I'm the only one who is unable to transit. It's so tiring to control. I've been too controlled and poised since long ago. How much longer can I hold on? I feel like I really can't anymore. This insidious lump is growing every day in my thoart. Gradually, I realise I can't even speak up anymore. Songs I love to sing, don't sound as nice anymore. Is there another outlet for me to express myself? Limits are pushed time and time again. How big can my heart be?

I love listening to oldies. I love music. It's suppose to make me happy. I feel the pulse of the music as if it's my own heart beat. Sometimes being too soaked in it doesn't do me good at all. Is there anyway else?

Keeping it all. Swallowing it all. Hiding it all.

Denying everything is not happiness. Being too sensible is my weakness.

Mood: some dull colour

In the end, it doesn't even matter

2008-07-14T21:04:00.006+08:00

So small, so tiny, everyone is struggling to live a life in their own way.
Burn, burn, burn, exhaust yourself.
What is there in the end?

Two hands, outstretched. Groping and grabbing.
What did you catch?

Walk, walk. Along the path.
Where is the beginning?
How did it end?

Twirl and dance. The song of destruction.
Join the beat. Fall into a trance.
Mentally shut. Physically numb.

Heart is in hibernation. To preserve.
To protect. To stop the pain.

I still love you...

Mood: Black absorbs all colour

I'm a Green-eyed monster and a Green Horn

2008-07-06T22:47:00.005+08:00

Yesterday, I learnt a new kind of emotion which is "Jealousy". Since young, I was aware of its existence but I couldn't understand how it felt or identify it only till then. From here, I realise my emotions is only at an infancy stage. I feel, perhaps the only emotions I can understand now is only Anger, Happiness, saddness, repression and longing.

It's so easy to satisfy an infant's need, but was it too easy to such an extent that no one can comprehand? Because things are so simple, no one could understand and gradually we all adapted to become complicated animals. The pure, innocence and simplicity is lost. We are all corrupted. It's so hard to stay pure. We hid overselves with words and masks. It takes so much effort to even understand myself.

Nothing is never changing, all things shall perish. Going back brings sentimental memories. Tomorrow is not the same as Today, neither is Today and Yesterday. I now only sincerely wish, in my tomorrows and tomorrows, that I can __________________again.

Mood: Green and Blue

Zui jing bi jiao fan, bi jiao fan, bi jiao fan....

2008-06-18T23:20:00.002+08:00

Yes, this is the best song to describe my mood. Lately, I really do not have the appettite to do anything. Making matters worst, my Final exams for speacial semester is THIS FRIDAY! I have no mood to study... whoever thought that can hua bei fen wei tu qiang one, go eat sai la!

My life is in a total mess... how did I get myself so tangled up, I wonder... Signals are sent but not the right ones were receieved. *sings Jay Chou's An Hao* so sad... things and people I really care for and think about just go away. Others which I do not need just keep coming. I don't want it. What should I do? What can I say? I've said what I needed too, I've tried what I wanted too. Maybe I wasn't trying hard enough... I think I will lose myself if I erase you.

Who am I waiting for to pick me up once again? Am I going to open up to anyone again? The crystal which is being disintergrated into finer pieces is finding it harder to shine as brightly as before. Now I've becomed a stray cat again. Liu lang arh~~ liu lang....

Mood: smearing of colours

A Mermaid without voice

2008-06-14T20:16:00.004+08:00

EMO~ *BGM, Jay chou's kai bu liao kou & xiang hui dao guo qu*

*types (beep beep beep)*
Morning. Haiz.. This week I'm down with bad luck. Too much unlucky things happened to me. On my way to work as usu, but students half way smsed to cancel lesson.... so it's only 1 hr work today.... Wo hao xiang bei sua le...

*press back* - save to draft??
*ponders* type type type, delete delete * sighz*

*stares at handphone* Swimming today too? Xiang jian ni... * haiz*
*puts fone awy*

Ding Ding ding~
*slide up*
*haiz* type type type.... send.

*Look at the sky*
*thinks* Tian kong liao kuo, Di shi na me de da...ke shi Kan bu dao zi ji de chang shen zhi chu
*sighs*

*open mouth* (silence)
*clenches fists* walks on.

Mood: transparent

A kite that cannot fly....

2008-06-09T09:19:00.006+08:00

1st agenda: Ling, Qing hai hao ma? Me taking special semester this sch holiday , hopefully I can yi fan feng shun complete this module and graduate le. Hao sian, what sud I do after i grad i still don't noe wad to do... Im just like a little kid who nv grows up. LoL

2nd agenda: ... ... ... ... tai nan kai kou le. She mo dou suo bu chu kou. Xiang xiao ye xiao bu chu lai. I think this is wad ple usually call depression ba. Mic, if you ever come across this blog in a 1 / 1,000,000 th chance. I want you to noe U hit the jackpot. I dont have much positive points. I may seem like i nv thk much and goes abt banging walls. However, it isnt exactly true, i think alot, I spend so much time to think and fight myself. In the end i still come to the same conclusion. To believe in someone and something is all I can do. Simple is beauty but in the eyes of others it can be redundancy and stupidity.

I wish I m a proud feline. I wish to hold my pride till the end. nth which is hollow inside will have the strength to support. Looks is just my pride to hide my inner flaws. To live and let live... Let me go , Let you go.. let the kite fly. I cut ur string so pls cut mine too. Love is "shellfish".

did you think so much too to grow so much more white hairs?

Back to Square 1

Qian Nian Zhi Lian

2008-04-08T23:55:00.002+08:00

These few weeks were so hectic, I dont even have much time to enjoy gaming. So sad... My timetable everyday is to stay back in school after lessons and force myself to do work. Wadever work.. pResentation, essay writting, project.... all shit. The good thing is that the SHITTY MALAY PRESentaion is finally over, HURRY!! X3 THe Bad thing is I have 2 reports due on Friday at 5 pm. Argh~ Friday is my free day no sch, trying to rush finish everyth on Thur so i reward myself with a break. YEAH~

The semester is ending, my school fees are not yet paid, I'm graduating soon.... but wad m i gg to do after i Graduate?? Final exams are coming in 2-3 weeks time... What M i doing? lol SHIT I'm wasting time blogging??!! lol

Gan jue hao xiang zhong yu su xing le, xiang chong yao yuan de qian nian. Dan yi qie dou tai chi le, wo yi bei yi liu zai na yao yuan de shi kong, wu fa hui dao xian shi de shi jie. Wo xiang jiu shuan zai guo ge ji qian nian, wo hai shi wo... wo jiu shi wo....wo bu hui bian.... Ren xin ye hao, wu zhi ye ba.

Si nian

2008-02-09T11:41:00.000+08:00

Ling arh, wo hao xiang ni... wish u a Happy Chinese New Year. When miss me come read read my blog or leave me a msg haha. This new year is so different without you. But ur future is more impt haha K wish u Xin xiang shi cheng, Shen ti jian kang =D

I will jia you oso, got time me write u someth. U and QQ are my best fren forever. You yi wan sui~~ Bonsai! Cheers.

How deep is ur love?

2008-01-27T11:25:00.000+08:00

If I let u go... I will never know.... I'm stuck in the delimma of whether or not to pursue my own new happiness. You haven't been too kind to me, you have hurt me so DEEP. You make me feel so guilty to love u so much. The more I love you, the more pain I'm giving you and creating for myself. I'm trapped in a vicious cycle. Maybe my expired date has already reached... How I wish I was treasured more like a stone than to some stupid canned food.

Howling at the sky.....

Mood: muddy brown

Sakurairo Mau Koro

2008-01-19T16:52:00.000+08:00

Weather and Me

The Weather relfects my mood so closely nowadays.
I do not know, perhaps, I was influence by it.
Ominious grey clouds covered the sky, threatening to rain.
Yet on the opposite side of the sky, the sun continues to shine and give us the warmth.
I can't help but to think,"Indeed, the weather is an expression of my true internal feelings."
Countless of unspoken reasons clouded my mind,
but to live on every day, I willed myself to stay under the light - to be with you.

Perhaps, I seeked comfort in the unpredictable weather.
The zooming draft chilled the excruciating pain living in my little body.
My heart stopped beating a moment under the icy grip; it felt soothing.
The resistence against the wind told me,"Just give up, you are tired already..."
Again, I continued to push forward but where am I heading?

The sky poured, as if crying in place for me.
It felt good, like some excess and unwanted energy found a way of release in me.
However, no matter how much is released, it just kept coming back to me.
Every night, silent tears found their way out of my eyes.
"Why," I wondered, "have the unpredictable weather possessed me?"

The sun will shine after the rain. Maybe I'll even be lucky and see a rainbow.
Can I believe?
Do you understand me?

Mood: Dull blue

Nobody Wanna See Us Together...

2008-01-19T00:04:00.000+08:00

Hm... Friday is the only day in the week where I have no lessons.Yup, I've got a 4 day week timetable this semester. I woke up late around noon and spent most of the time training my baby Prophet in Lineage II. Just another boring day and nothing interesting happened. Tmr is my work day, gotta travel to the west to teach music...

I wonder how u are doing today... Miss you but you said not to bother too... Now I dont dare to say it anymore...Is this a silent break?

I wish that I've still got you

Mood: Grey

Wei She Mo yao dui ni.... diao yen lei~~~

2008-01-17T23:51:00.000+08:00

10am at LT13 for my first GE3239 lecture. Poor me cudnt find the LT ended up running ard the whole ARTs Blk >.< Lecture was exciting, I'm looking 4ward to this semester^^

Today is the 3rd time i gamed in sch, except im using my own lap top and not "illegally" downloading the game into a sch computer =p

Did you have Chicken Rice for dinner too? I wonder.

Mood: blue

Hurray for GEOGRApHY

2008-01-16T19:25:00.000+08:00

I love GEOGRAPHY~~~! LaLaLa

Oh yeah~ Finally in the first week of school reopen, TODAY, I have my first GEOGRAPHY lessons. I just love it. ^^ <3

Hoho, I'm taking 2 GEOGRAPHY modules this semester. The modules are Urban Climate and Environmental Sustainability. The former is more of physical compared to the latter. Sadly, the all the other physical modules offered this semester were already taken by me before. So, I'm trying out this NEWLY offered module Environmental Sustainability. It sounds rather cool and applicable to Singapore. Best of all, it's taught by one of my favourite lecturers last semester ^^ Mr Harvey Neo. He's really a cool and fun lecturer, though rather monotonous. I'm looking forward to more video clips for the modules. I've yet to attend this lecture but I'll update u guys tmr on it. Meanwhile, I have my hopes up pretty high.

Well, other modules ain't that bad either I guess. I'm taking lv 2 Malay language, sociology of Tourism, New media and communication intro and ENGLISH REMEDIAL. <--- Damn I hate English language. Cant they just test my oral and not my written =x?? I ended up in English remedial classes cos of my sucky grade for GP, C6. Hey, don't luff, I knew i wouldn't do well for GP cos i wrote out of context for my essay and only realised in the end of the exam. Screw me, I was probably too stressed out for my A lvl. Oh well...

Mood: Sunny yellow ^^/

Back to square 1 BISH

2008-01-16T10:33:00.000+08:00

Why did i even started a blog? Too many reasons, let's see...

1. Save paper and pen ink
2. Lack space at home to keep more diaries
3. easy to access anytime when I want to pen something down
4. blah blah blah
5. Blah blah blah
6. The list goes on....

Not a really a fan of blogging but a really good place write share, vent, forget, complain and blah blah blah.

Sorry to waste a few seconds of ur life reading my shit, I DID NOT force u too do so.

Mood: Red

Purr- fect Feline

Time After Time - Cyndi Lauper

Time Passed, Leaving Behind

Forbidden Words

Reaching Out to Grasp

你不知到的事 by 王力宏

Love means Love, Hate means Hate

Dishonest Food Vendor with Bad Customer Service in Changi Village Food Centre

Can you meet me half way - Black Eyed Peas

Fade Away by Me

It will never be the same again

Haven't been so happy for awhile ~~

Alive

巫师 by me

Ironically, Happy Birthday to Myself lol

Happy Birthday my friend

FKING

Dai Wo Zou - Rainie Yang Cheng Ling

The Gaseous State of My life

Turn On the Heat

Tell me what I See, Hear is all Real please

All Hope Is Not Lost

When You Look Me in the Eye by Jonas Brothers

Blank Paper by Shing02 Feat. Murs

It's My Life by Bon Jovi

Aspiring Designer

Hormone King

So Twisted and Gruesome, Presenting to you the Little Soldier

Hitori - Mika Nakashima

What You Never Know - Hayley Westenra

Because I love you by Shakin Stevens

In the end, it doesn't even matter

I'm a Green-eyed monster and a Green Horn

Zui jing bi jiao fan, bi jiao fan, bi jiao fan....

A Mermaid without voice

A kite that cannot fly....

Qian Nian Zhi Lian

Si nian

How deep is ur love?

Sakurairo Mau Koro

Nobody Wanna See Us Together...

Wei She Mo yao dui ni.... diao yen lei~~~

Hurray for GEOGRApHY

Back to square 1 *BISH*

Back to square 1 BISH