So uncool

I'm not suitable for gatherings. They just tire me out. I've spoken more than 100 words today. 

Held back ( 20/1)

Lately I keep having this feeling of being restricted and held back. It's a super ball of negative emotions that is all bundled up and ready to explode.
I get irritated easily and can't relax or have fun completely.

Wonder what's the reason. I should be the happiest now this moment travelling with someone I can trust but it just doesn't feel right.

Flight to jeju delayed due to aircraft connection. Flying on my own to jeju. Maybe, I just need to revert back to being alone. The lone wolf.

Emptiness

Insecurity and emptiness gnawing inside. Don't know why I feel this way out of the blue. Impending misfortune? New year but not a smooth start.

Trying to be positive but also trying not to be delusioned and accepting all possible negative outcomes. I know some things just can't be avoided.

Very much hope to continue staying in the comfort zone but I just can't help it that I have to move on again. Wish it isn't dejavu. Being through once, is enough. Will the second time kill me?What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Worried about the aftermath and side effects though. Repercussions are just too hard to heal.

Maybe I'm just thinking too much. If I can be wrong just for once.

Apprehensive.

Newbie Photographer~

I'm so excited. Today is the first time I did a proper photography project. Very first and very heavy responsibility of being the photog of my god bro's wedding ceremony.

There were hipcups along the way, but managed to tide through and pop up with one or two interesting pictures miraculously. :) thanks to the spontaenous and brilliant suggestions contributed by the participants.

Hope you guys enjoyed the pictures as much as I do.

Welcome to my Secret Garden Ladies

It's been awhile since I cropped my hair super short. Got a razor cut recently and it prompted me to start exuding some manliness again.

Although it is still a far cry from sexy manliness, I'm trying harder. Especially for my fair ladies~

How many wrongs does it take to make a right?

Orez. Gnorw lliw reven etauqe ot a thgir. Tnod estaw ruoy emit gniyrt.

Simple is Beauty

It's been awhile over the years. I guess most of us have graduated from blogspots to other more interactive options of social media, say twitter or tumbler? Even Facebook is too old school now.

I spent some time reading through my older posts. I am truly surprised that my younger self was a 'genius' in certain sense. I had a way with words. Simple and to essence. Till this day,I could even relive the moment I had felt years back in time.

Have I changed? Have I forgotten? Have I chosen to escape? These past fews years in work society has dulled my senses. I no longer feel as intellect and sharp. I feel ashamed. I feel like a retard and dimwit! I haven't matured a single bit. Not enough.

Words cut. They hurt. I've grown old and forgetful. I have becomed too comfortable with the temporary comfort. I have greed. I indulgded in what did not belonged to me. Now I shall have to pay the price.