Emptiness

Insecurity and emptiness gnawing inside. Don't know why I feel this way out of the blue. Impending misfortune? New year but not a smooth start.

Trying to be positive but also trying not to be delusioned and accepting all possible negative outcomes. I know some things just can't be avoided.

Very much hope to continue staying in the comfort zone but I just can't help it that I have to move on again. Wish it isn't dejavu. Being through once, is enough. Will the second time kill me?What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Worried about the aftermath and side effects though. Repercussions are just too hard to heal.

Maybe I'm just thinking too much. If I can be wrong just for once.

Apprehensive.

Newbie Photographer~

I'm so excited. Today is the first time I did a proper photography project. Very first and very heavy responsibility of being the photog of my god bro's wedding ceremony.

There were hipcups along the way, but managed to tide through and pop up with one or two interesting pictures miraculously. :) thanks to the spontaenous and brilliant suggestions contributed by the participants.

Hope you guys enjoyed the pictures as much as I do.

Welcome to my Secret Garden Ladies

It's been awhile since I cropped my hair super short. Got a razor cut recently and it prompted me to start exuding some manliness again.

Although it is still a far cry from sexy manliness, I'm trying harder. Especially for my fair ladies~

How many wrongs does it take to make a right?

Orez. Gnorw lliw reven etauqe ot a thgir. Tnod estaw ruoy emit gniyrt.

Simple is Beauty

It's been awhile over the years. I guess most of us have graduated from blogspots to other more interactive options of social media, say twitter or tumbler? Even Facebook is too old school now.

I spent some time reading through my older posts. I am truly surprised that my younger self was a 'genius' in certain sense. I had a way with words. Simple and to essence. Till this day,I could even relive the moment I had felt years back in time.

Have I changed? Have I forgotten? Have I chosen to escape? These past fews years in work society has dulled my senses. I no longer feel as intellect and sharp. I feel ashamed. I feel like a retard and dimwit! I haven't matured a single bit. Not enough.

Words cut. They hurt. I've grown old and forgetful. I have becomed too comfortable with the temporary comfort. I have greed. I indulgded in what did not belonged to me. Now I shall have to pay the price.

Time After Time - Cyndi Lauper

Song randomly popped in my head.
Dark Metal, erratic

Pr"E"y

A fever that keeps burning and will never subside
A chill that wraps around so tightly every night
Memories that diminishes bit by bit along every passing time
Sensations desensitized
Line of thoughts got blocked
Shattered pieces that could never be retrieved
In state of unrest
Unable to attain equilibrium
Lifeless eyes that see nothing but preys
Feasting upon negativity to fill up the empty soul
Never satiated, hungry and cold
Solo, Lone, Independent, Proud
Demon hiding in an Angel shell
Beware, Oh beware
Let's Visit Wonderland~
Too late to run, Bewitch and Enchanted
Take joy in entrapment
Smoldering pangs of hunger
Beware, Oh beware
Oh Master, Beware~

Time Passed, Leaving Behind

Gradually forgotten alot of things that were once important to me.
Once an impossible task but everything was already left hanging and stuck.
Questions I never had the courage to ask.
Would it have made a difference if I did?
A fist that was held clenched and never loosened.
Opened up to unveal nothing.
I start to wonder of your existence.
Did our picture frames ever adjoint?
Places I've been too. Seem to have been or yet to been?
A yesterday I remembered so clearly.
Did Yesterday really happened?
A provoking pain that never stopped bothering me.
It has left or have I gotten numb and unfeeling.
It's the latter. I'm stronger than before.
What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.
However its so depressing. Lost the essence of being part human.