How many wrongs does it take to make a right?

Orez. Gnorw lliw reven etauqe ot a thgir. Tnod estaw ruoy emit gniyrt.

Simple is Beauty

It's been awhile over the years. I guess most of us have graduated from blogspots to other more interactive options of social media, say twitter or tumbler? Even Facebook is too old school now.

I spent some time reading through my older posts. I am truly surprised that my younger self was a 'genius' in certain sense. I had a way with words. Simple and to essence. Till this day,I could even relive the moment I had felt years back in time.

Have I changed? Have I forgotten? Have I chosen to escape? These past fews years in work society has dulled my senses. I no longer feel as intellect and sharp. I feel ashamed. I feel like a retard and dimwit! I haven't matured a single bit. Not enough.

Words cut. They hurt. I've grown old and forgetful. I have becomed too comfortable with the temporary comfort. I have greed. I indulgded in what did not belonged to me. Now I shall have to pay the price.

Time After Time - Cyndi Lauper

Song randomly popped in my head.
Dark Metal, erratic

Pr"E"y

A fever that keeps burning and will never subside
A chill that wraps around so tightly every night
Memories that diminishes bit by bit along every passing time
Sensations desensitized
Line of thoughts got blocked
Shattered pieces that could never be retrieved
In state of unrest
Unable to attain equilibrium
Lifeless eyes that see nothing but preys
Feasting upon negativity to fill up the empty soul
Never satiated, hungry and cold
Solo, Lone, Independent, Proud
Demon hiding in an Angel shell
Beware, Oh beware
Let's Visit Wonderland~
Too late to run, Bewitch and Enchanted
Take joy in entrapment
Smoldering pangs of hunger
Beware, Oh beware
Oh Master, Beware~

Time Passed, Leaving Behind

Gradually forgotten alot of things that were once important to me.
Once an impossible task but everything was already left hanging and stuck.
Questions I never had the courage to ask.
Would it have made a difference if I did?
A fist that was held clenched and never loosened.
Opened up to unveal nothing.
I start to wonder of your existence.
Did our picture frames ever adjoint?
Places I've been too. Seem to have been or yet to been?
A yesterday I remembered so clearly.
Did Yesterday really happened?
A provoking pain that never stopped bothering me.
It has left or have I gotten numb and unfeeling.
It's the latter. I'm stronger than before.
What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.
However its so depressing. Lost the essence of being part human.

Forbidden Words

Random Thoughts:

Never say "I Love You" to anyone if you cannot love a person from beginning till the end. A man(referring to human both male and female) must be responsible for his/her words and actions. Eating your own words will decay the purest heart and give birth to a tainted soul.

A pure soul and heart is neither gullible nor naive. It is the most holy, as pure as a new born.

Breaking a trust, is the birth of more evils and degeneration to come. Distortion becomes the facet for one to compete for survival. (in all aspects of life)

Only FOOLS think that their sins can be purified, redeemed or lessened by believing and following some imaginary human figure. A sinner will always be a sinner.

Light is Dark and Dark is Light, because they coexist. Truth is Lie and Lie is Truth, it's just a matter of perception of the majority.

Reaching Out to Grasp

Yet another dream. What was I dreaming? I couldn't remember.
I was reaching out my hand, but in a dilemma whether to grasp on.
Yet another tear escaped without control.
What was I dreaming again?
Tearing silently to myself in the moment when emotions hit me.
What was I feeling then?
If I had held on, would it make a difference?
Is it too late to reach out or grasp on anymore.
Lately I kept thinking. Why do I keep having these distraughting dreams?
I've lost my ability to cry with a conscious mind.
I know it. Crying won't bring back anything.
Suppressing myself too much? Stressing out at work?
Falling sleepy easily and falling into deeper sleep more often and longer hours.
Am I escaping? Am I dying?
Searching for a cure. Although I don't know what will remedy.
I am a bird in search of the limitless sky?
Once I had a sky, I thought I could fly freely.
I met a cloud, which really fascinated me.
Followed and followed but the cloud eventually dissipated.
Chasing and searching aimlessly for the missing cloud.
Another bird flew by. Showed me a tree hole where I can perch on to watch the sky.
But I was not satisfied. I did not share the same ideal.
Watching was not contenting for me. I had to fly.
I know clouds come and go, but I'm still so fascinated by clouds.
Always changing. Always moving. Around me. Protecting me.

你不知到的事 by 王力宏

Original Lyrics
蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
我飞行 但你坠落之际
很靠近 还听见呼吸
对不起 我却没捉紧你

你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨
碎了满地 在心里清晰

你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
我飞行 但你坠落之际
很靠近 还听见呼吸
对不起 我却没捉紧你

你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨
碎了满地 在心里清晰

你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事

我飞行 但你坠落之际

你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨
碎了满地 在心里清晰

你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事

My take at translating these beautiful lyrics. Thank you for guiding Puma home with this song. I will remember this for life.

How many times does a butterfly blink
Before it learns to fly?
Countless stars scattered across the night sky,
but how many will fall?
Even as I soared while you descended
It's so close I can still hear you breathe
I'm sorry, I couldn't hold on to you

Chorus
You didn't know why I had to leave you
Even though I couldn't bear to let you cry
Your tears overflowed like a downpour
Shattering the grounds, piercing my heart

You didn't know why I had to be cruel
Keeping my distance and staying out of sight
There is just so much, that you didn't know

Even as I moved on while you fell apart