Emptiness

Insecurity and emptiness gnawing inside. Don't know why I feel this way out of the blue. Impending misfortune? New year but not a smooth start.

Trying to be positive but also trying not to be delusioned and accepting all possible negative outcomes. I know some things just can't be avoided.

Very much hope to continue staying in the comfort zone but I just can't help it that I have to move on again. Wish it isn't dejavu. Being through once, is enough. Will the second time kill me?What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Worried about the aftermath and side effects though. Repercussions are just too hard to heal.

Maybe I'm just thinking too much. If I can be wrong just for once.

Apprehensive.