If I let u go... I will never know.... I'm stuck in the delimma of whether or not to pursue my own new happiness. You haven't been too kind to me, you have hurt me so DEEP. You make me feel so guilty to love u so much. The more I love you, the more pain I'm giving you and creating for myself. I'm trapped in a vicious cycle. Maybe my expired date has already reached... How I wish I was treasured more like a stone than to some stupid canned food.
Howling at the sky.....
Mood: muddy brown
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Sakurairo Mau Koro
Weather and Me
The Weather relfects my mood so closely nowadays.
I do not know, perhaps, I was influence by it.
Ominious grey clouds covered the sky, threatening to rain.
Yet on the opposite side of the sky, the sun continues to shine and give us the warmth.
I can't help but to think,"Indeed, the weather is an expression of my true internal feelings."
Countless of unspoken reasons clouded my mind,
but to live on every day, I willed myself to stay under the light - to be with you.
Perhaps, I seeked comfort in the unpredictable weather.
The zooming draft chilled the excruciating pain living in my little body.
My heart stopped beating a moment under the icy grip; it felt soothing.
The resistence against the wind told me,"Just give up, you are tired already..."
Again, I continued to push forward but where am I heading?
The sky poured, as if crying in place for me.
It felt good, like some excess and unwanted energy found a way of release in me.
However, no matter how much is released, it just kept coming back to me.
Every night, silent tears found their way out of my eyes.
"Why," I wondered, "have the unpredictable weather possessed me?"
The sun will shine after the rain. Maybe I'll even be lucky and see a rainbow.
Can I believe?
Do you understand me?
Mood: Dull blue
The Weather relfects my mood so closely nowadays.
I do not know, perhaps, I was influence by it.
Ominious grey clouds covered the sky, threatening to rain.
Yet on the opposite side of the sky, the sun continues to shine and give us the warmth.
I can't help but to think,"Indeed, the weather is an expression of my true internal feelings."
Countless of unspoken reasons clouded my mind,
but to live on every day, I willed myself to stay under the light - to be with you.
Perhaps, I seeked comfort in the unpredictable weather.
The zooming draft chilled the excruciating pain living in my little body.
My heart stopped beating a moment under the icy grip; it felt soothing.
The resistence against the wind told me,"Just give up, you are tired already..."
Again, I continued to push forward but where am I heading?
The sky poured, as if crying in place for me.
It felt good, like some excess and unwanted energy found a way of release in me.
However, no matter how much is released, it just kept coming back to me.
Every night, silent tears found their way out of my eyes.
"Why," I wondered, "have the unpredictable weather possessed me?"
The sun will shine after the rain. Maybe I'll even be lucky and see a rainbow.
Can I believe?
Do you understand me?
Mood: Dull blue
Nobody Wanna See Us Together...
Hm... Friday is the only day in the week where I have no lessons.Yup, I've got a 4 day week timetable this semester. I woke up late around noon and spent most of the time training my baby Prophet in Lineage II. Just another boring day and nothing interesting happened. Tmr is my work day, gotta travel to the west to teach music...
I wonder how u are doing today... Miss you but you said not to bother too... Now I dont dare to say it anymore...Is this a silent break?
I wish that I've still got you
Mood: Grey
I wonder how u are doing today... Miss you but you said not to bother too... Now I dont dare to say it anymore...Is this a silent break?
I wish that I've still got you
Mood: Grey
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Wei She Mo yao dui ni.... diao yen lei~~~
10am at LT13 for my first GE3239 lecture. Poor me cudnt find the LT ended up running ard the whole ARTs Blk >.< Lecture was exciting, I'm looking 4ward to this semester^^
Today is the 3rd time i gamed in sch, except im using my own lap top and not "illegally" downloading the game into a sch computer =p
Did you have Chicken Rice for dinner too? I wonder.
Mood: blue
Today is the 3rd time i gamed in sch, except im using my own lap top and not "illegally" downloading the game into a sch computer =p
Did you have Chicken Rice for dinner too? I wonder.
Mood: blue
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Hurray for GEOGRApHY
I love GEOGRAPHY~~~! LaLaLa
Oh yeah~ Finally in the first week of school reopen, TODAY, I have my first GEOGRAPHY lessons. I just love it. ^^ <3
Hoho, I'm taking 2 GEOGRAPHY modules this semester. The modules are Urban Climate and Environmental Sustainability. The former is more of physical compared to the latter. Sadly, the all the other physical modules offered this semester were already taken by me before. So, I'm trying out this NEWLY offered module Environmental Sustainability. It sounds rather cool and applicable to Singapore. Best of all, it's taught by one of my favourite lecturers last semester ^^ Mr Harvey Neo. He's really a cool and fun lecturer, though rather monotonous. I'm looking forward to more video clips for the modules. I've yet to attend this lecture but I'll update u guys tmr on it. Meanwhile, I have my hopes up pretty high.
Well, other modules ain't that bad either I guess. I'm taking lv 2 Malay language, sociology of Tourism, New media and communication intro and ENGLISH REMEDIAL. <--- Damn I hate English language. Cant they just test my oral and not my written =x?? I ended up in English remedial classes cos of my sucky grade for GP, C6. Hey, don't luff, I knew i wouldn't do well for GP cos i wrote out of context for my essay and only realised in the end of the exam. Screw me, I was probably too stressed out for my A lvl. Oh well...
Mood: Sunny yellow ^^/
Oh yeah~ Finally in the first week of school reopen, TODAY, I have my first GEOGRAPHY lessons. I just love it. ^^ <3
Hoho, I'm taking 2 GEOGRAPHY modules this semester. The modules are Urban Climate and Environmental Sustainability. The former is more of physical compared to the latter. Sadly, the all the other physical modules offered this semester were already taken by me before. So, I'm trying out this NEWLY offered module Environmental Sustainability. It sounds rather cool and applicable to Singapore. Best of all, it's taught by one of my favourite lecturers last semester ^^ Mr Harvey Neo. He's really a cool and fun lecturer, though rather monotonous. I'm looking forward to more video clips for the modules. I've yet to attend this lecture but I'll update u guys tmr on it. Meanwhile, I have my hopes up pretty high.
Well, other modules ain't that bad either I guess. I'm taking lv 2 Malay language, sociology of Tourism, New media and communication intro and ENGLISH REMEDIAL. <--- Damn I hate English language. Cant they just test my oral and not my written =x?? I ended up in English remedial classes cos of my sucky grade for GP, C6. Hey, don't luff, I knew i wouldn't do well for GP cos i wrote out of context for my essay and only realised in the end of the exam. Screw me, I was probably too stressed out for my A lvl. Oh well...
Mood: Sunny yellow ^^/
Back to square 1 *BISH*
Why did i even started a blog? Too many reasons, let's see...
1. Save paper and pen ink
2. Lack space at home to keep more diaries
3. easy to access anytime when I want to pen something down
4. blah blah blah
5. Blah blah blah
6. The list goes on....
Not a really a fan of blogging but a really good place write share, vent, forget, complain and blah blah blah.
Sorry to waste a few seconds of ur life reading my shit, I DID NOT force u too do so.
Mood: Red
1. Save paper and pen ink
2. Lack space at home to keep more diaries
3. easy to access anytime when I want to pen something down
4. blah blah blah
5. Blah blah blah
6. The list goes on....
Not a really a fan of blogging but a really good place write share, vent, forget, complain and blah blah blah.
Sorry to waste a few seconds of ur life reading my shit, I DID NOT force u too do so.
Mood: Red
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