Zui jing bi jiao fan, bi jiao fan, bi jiao fan....

Yes, this is the best song to describe my mood. Lately, I really do not have the appettite to do anything. Making matters worst, my Final exams for speacial semester is THIS FRIDAY! I have no mood to study... whoever thought that can hua bei fen wei tu qiang one, go eat sai la!

My life is in a total mess... how did I get myself so tangled up, I wonder... Signals are sent but not the right ones were receieved. *sings Jay Chou's An Hao* so sad... things and people I really care for and think about just go away. Others which I do not need just keep coming. I don't want it. What should I do? What can I say? I've said what I needed too, I've tried what I wanted too. Maybe I wasn't trying hard enough... I think I will lose myself if I erase you.

Who am I waiting for to pick me up once again? Am I going to open up to anyone again? The crystal which is being disintergrated into finer pieces is finding it harder to shine as brightly as before. Now I've becomed a stray cat again. Liu lang arh~~ liu lang....

Mood: smearing of colours

A Mermaid without voice

EMO~ *BGM, Jay chou's kai bu liao kou & xiang hui dao guo qu*

*types (beep beep beep)*
Morning. Haiz.. This week I'm down with bad luck. Too much unlucky things happened to me. On my way to work as usu, but students half way smsed to cancel lesson.... so it's only 1 hr work today.... Wo hao xiang bei sua le...

*press back* - save to draft??
*ponders* type type type, delete delete * sighz*

*stares at handphone* Swimming today too? Xiang jian ni... * haiz*
*puts fone awy*

Ding Ding ding~
*slide up*
*haiz* type type type.... send.

*Look at the sky*
*thinks* Tian kong liao kuo, Di shi na me de da...ke shi Kan bu dao zi ji de chang shen zhi chu
*sighs*

*open mouth* (silence)
*clenches fists* walks on.

Mood: transparent

A kite that cannot fly....

1st agenda: Ling, Qing hai hao ma? Me taking special semester this sch holiday , hopefully I can yi fan feng shun complete this module and graduate le. Hao sian, what sud I do after i grad i still don't noe wad to do... Im just like a little kid who nv grows up. LoL

2nd agenda: ... ... ... ... tai nan kai kou le. She mo dou suo bu chu kou. Xiang xiao ye xiao bu chu lai. I think this is wad ple usually call depression ba. Mic, if you ever come across this blog in a 1 / 1,000,000 th chance. I want you to noe U hit the jackpot. I dont have much positive points. I may seem like i nv thk much and goes abt banging walls. However, it isnt exactly true, i think alot, I spend so much time to think and fight myself. In the end i still come to the same conclusion. To believe in someone and something is all I can do. Simple is beauty but in the eyes of others it can be redundancy and stupidity.

I wish I m a proud feline. I wish to hold my pride till the end. nth which is hollow inside will have the strength to support. Looks is just my pride to hide my inner flaws. To live and let live... Let me go , Let you go.. let the kite fly. I cut ur string so pls cut mine too. Love is "shellfish".

did you think so much too to grow so much more white hairs?

Back to Square 1