Sunday, December 19, 2010

Time After Time - Cyndi Lauper

Song randomly popped in my head.
Dark Metal, erratic

Pr"E"y

A fever that keeps burning and will never subside
A chill that wraps around so tightly every night
Memories that diminishes bit by bit along every passing time
Sensations desensitized
Line of thoughts got blocked
Shattered pieces that could never be retrieved
In state of unrest
Unable to attain equilibrium
Lifeless eyes that see nothing but preys
Feasting upon negativity to fill up the empty soul
Never satiated, hungry and cold
Solo, Lone, Independent, Proud
Demon hiding in an Angel shell
Beware, Oh beware
Let's Visit Wonderland~
Too late to run, Bewitch and Enchanted
Take joy in entrapment
Smoldering pangs of hunger
Beware, Oh beware
Oh Master, Beware~

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Time Passed, Leaving Behind

Gradually forgotten alot of things that were once important to me.
Once an impossible task but everything was already left hanging and stuck.
Questions I never had the courage to ask.
Would it have made a difference if I did?
A fist that was held clenched and never loosened.
Opened up to unveal nothing.
I start to wonder of your existence.
Did our picture frames ever adjoint?
Places I've been too. Seem to have been or yet to been?
A yesterday I remembered so clearly.
Did Yesterday really happened?
A provoking pain that never stopped bothering me.
It has left or have I gotten numb and unfeeling.
It's the latter. I'm stronger than before.
What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.
However its so depressing. Lost the essence of being part human.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Forbidden Words

Random Thoughts:

Never say "I Love You" to anyone if you cannot love a person from beginning till the end. A man(referring to human both male and female) must be responsible for his/her words and actions. Eating your own words will decay the purest heart and give birth to a tainted soul.

A pure soul and heart is neither gullible nor naive. It is the most holy, as pure as a new born.

Breaking a trust, is the birth of more evils and degeneration to come. Distortion becomes the facet for one to compete for survival. (in all aspects of life)

Only FOOLS think that their sins can be purified, redeemed or lessened by believing and following some imaginary human figure. A sinner will always be a sinner.

Light is Dark and Dark is Light, because they coexist. Truth is Lie and Lie is Truth, it's just a matter of perception of the majority.

Monday, October 25, 2010

Reaching Out to Grasp


Yet another dream. What was I dreaming? I couldn't remember.
I was reaching out my hand, but in a dilemma whether to grasp on.
Yet another tear escaped without control.
What was I dreaming again?
Tearing silently to myself in the moment when emotions hit me.
What was I feeling then?
If I had held on, would it make a difference?
Is it too late to reach out or grasp on anymore.
Lately I kept thinking. Why do I keep having these distraughting dreams?
I've lost my ability to cry with a conscious mind.
I know it. Crying won't bring back anything.
Suppressing myself too much? Stressing out at work?
Falling sleepy easily and falling into deeper sleep more often and longer hours.
Am I escaping? Am I dying?
Searching for a cure. Although I don't know what will remedy.
I am a bird in search of the limitless sky?
Once I had a sky, I thought I could fly freely.
I met a cloud, which really fascinated me.
Followed and followed but the cloud eventually dissipated.
Chasing and searching aimlessly for the missing cloud.
Another bird flew by. Showed me a tree hole where I can perch on to watch the sky.
But I was not satisfied. I did not share the same ideal.
Watching was not contenting for me. I had to fly.
I know clouds come and go, but I'm still so fascinated by clouds.
Always changing. Always moving. Around me. Protecting me.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

你不知到的事 by 王力宏


Original Lyrics
蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
我飞行 但你坠落之际
很靠近 还听见呼吸
对不起 我却没捉紧你

你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨
碎了满地 在心里清晰

你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
我飞行 但你坠落之际
很靠近 还听见呼吸
对不起 我却没捉紧你

你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨
碎了满地 在心里清晰

你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事

我飞行 但你坠落之际

你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨
碎了满地 在心里清晰

你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事

My take at translating these beautiful lyrics. Thank you for guiding Puma home with this song. I will remember this for life.

How many times does a butterfly blink
Before it learns to fly?
Countless stars scattered across the night sky,
but how many will fall?
Even as I soared while you descended
It's so close I can still hear you breathe
I'm sorry, I couldn't hold on to you

Chorus
You didn't know why I had to leave you
Even though I couldn't bear to let you cry
Your tears overflowed like a downpour
Shattering the grounds, piercing my heart

You didn't know why I had to be cruel
Keeping my distance and staying out of sight
There is just so much, that you didn't know

Even as I moved on while you fell apart

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Love means Love, Hate means Hate


Can't believe it but after so many year I still LOVE HANAMICHI SAKURAGI from the manga SlamDunk. Oh Boy, he is jus too adorable. =x

His child-like innocence, perseverance and straight-forward character really made him stood out as a main character in SLAMDUNK!

He is so likable~~ *pinches his cheek* If I needed a friend to go crazy with, it will definitely be him. LOL

The mixture of silliness, pride, violence and gluttony only made his character more animated and lively. Reading SLAMDUNK back then in secondary school, he was really a source of motivation to me. He does have wonderful traits
we can learn from. Never Give Up!!


HANABISHI RECCA is just a normal and simple boy, nothing specially attractive or cute compared to SAKURAGI, but nevertheless, he has captured my heart too. It all began with his unique ability to conjure flames out of no where. LOL

Ok, it was due to the 9 dragons that cohabited in his body. A ninja boy from another dimension whose tribe has the special ability to conjure flames. These 9 dragons in his body are pretty much souls of his ancestors and father who had incompleted task or longings to kins which caused them to tranform into these fire dragons. *ok, I will stop here before I retell the whole manga*

I was fascinated by his unique ability and the dragons' power. Well as the manga progressed, the mangaka did improve his drawing on Recca. Boyish, determined and focused looking boy with a dash of cat-like cuteness. Was so capitvated by these burning flames of his that decided to name myself after him and then now I'm Recca too.~^^~ His passion and drive to conquer mountain after mountain is similar to that of SAKURAGI's too. Perhaps that's why I love him too.

Now GINTA here is drawn by the same manga artist as Flame of Recca, thus the resemblance. This could be one of the reasons I got attracted to him too. Let's say, Ginta is the younger and mini version of Recca. Coupled with his extremely cute cat-like face, I just fell in love immediately.

What's more, I really love reading books and manga's related to fantasy. MÄR just blew me off my feet. The rich display of creativity in the transformation of his weapon made me just fall deeper in LOVE with him. Again another character with the never say die attitude. It's something that really attracts me. I kept a tail back in my school days because I was so inspired by his hairstyle. Well for those who play FF7 or know Advert Child will notice he has this Cloud-like hair style too. Oh yea and that bring me to my next favourite character, he is none other than CLOUD STRIFE.


I love this guy too. *whispers* He is on my desktop display at my
workplace. =D I stare at him everyday and he looks cooling back at me in those cool shades of his. HAHA

The reason why I started to notice him was because of his buster sword. My NUMBER ONE favourite weapon in all the FF series. I remember the days back in JC... erm... I kept doodling him and his sword on every table I sat at. His cool composure and baby-like innocent faced is definitely A* for me. Besides he has this special aura emitting from him, this mysterious sadness in his eyes.

Similarly, he too, tries his very best, gives his 100% or more to and commits to his task. Just like Jay Chou's song, "认真的男人最魅力".
Thus, I've become his captive too.
Cloud looks so bishie, if I could I would wanna look like him like this every other day, though I think my hair will give way and fall off due to the bleaching and crazy loads of hair product. Not to mention, the time needed to stylized this hairdo.

SQUALL LEONHEART! What's his attraction? I tell you it's the scar on his face. And he looks most particularly attractive and sexy in this post with his gunblade and half face.

Oh yes, a gunblade is my 2nd favourite weapon in FF. The least cool weapon in FF history i would say it's the microphones... in FFX-2 songstress sphere. He may have a cool, clam composure and whatever attitude but at the end of the day he still aces his missions.

Speak of a man with scar on his face, RUROUNI KENSHIN is another hot guy not to miss. Flaming red hair, emotionless and cold poker face and his secret almighty and powerful sword techniques that slowly weakens his petite little body.

Definitely another man with a mission, plays the bad guy for the sake of a revolution. Maker of peace or harbinger of Death? I let you decide for yourself.



Ok, nothing to do with red hair or scars anymore but the samurai-fetish. Yes, I love the samurai costumes.
AKIRA and HOUTARU are my favourites in the series Samurai Deeper Kyo.

Akira is special because he blinded himself to climb greater heights and it's amazing how he could duel so well despite being blind. His technique "梦冰月天" (a skill similar to frozen prison, encase something in ice) is so beautiful and merciless. He is acts like an ice man, but deep down hot-blooded and passionate.

Houtaru is a dreamy and sleepy fellow but way more heartless, cruel and stubborn than Akira. Skills are on par with Akira or maybe better. What attracted me to him was his use of flame in his battling techniques. "Hellflame" and even fire phoenix. Also, the use of "blood mask", similar to a ritual to power up.

Last but not least all these guys share the ultimate same traits of passion and perseverance + super good looks, that's why I LOVE LOVE LOVE them~! I ended up writting so much. =p

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Dishonest Food Vendor with Bad Customer Service in Changi Village Food Centre

3 kind of egg vegetable Dish 三王蛋元菜



It's dinner time, so I met up with my family for dinner and we decided to go the Changi Village's Food Centre which was nearest to my home.

It's not the first time we have been here to have a meal, but it will definitely be out last time patronizing this stall. The stall's location is as stated above on the receipt,
Changi Seafood Crab Specialist Blk 3 Changi Village Road #01-63 Singapore 500003

The first time we had out dinner at the exact same stall was about 2 months ago. It was an unpleasant experience because we were bugged constantly to foot the bill throughout the course of our meal. My family and I couldn't even have our meal in peace. So my father questioned about their "bad service", and so their reply was quite acceptable and reasonable as they had incidents with customers who ran off after the meal without paying.

*we are extremely tolerant and reasonable people*

2 other groups of Chinese patrons who were seated at the neighbouring tables were so pissed off with the incessant bugging from the waitress that they paid their bills and stormed off leaving the food untouched on the table. Those food looked expensive, there were shells, prawns, crabs, BBQ sambal stingray and other seafood.

Today's second encounter with the similar service standards, or even worst, really left a horrible impression on me. Yes, they hurried us to foot the bill immediately again upon having done serving the dishes we ordered. If they were so worried, they could have changed the system to paying right after we ordered our food but they didn't. They chose to interrupt in the middle of our meal again.

This action is considered a taboo in chinese customs as it indirectly implies that the stall owner looks down on their customers, and seemingly suggesting that the patrons are poor and they can't pay up or they will run off after having eaten the meal. Now do you understand why the previous 2 groups of chinese patrons left in anger. Their way of customer service is insensitive to the traditional chinese cultures and customs. Ironically, the food stall belongs to a Chinese. Perhaps some modern Chinese.

Apart from the taboo to chinese customs, it's common sense and basic manners and etiquette to not interrupt others when they are having a meal... You learn that in kindergartens!!!

Ok, so my dad looks through the receipt and lo and behold!!!! $15 for a plate of stir fry Chinese spinach with wolfberries. Now my dad questions,

" It says here on the receipt that it's 三王蛋元菜 (a vegetable dish cooked with normal egg, salted egg and century egg).
We are having stir fry vegetable with wolfberries here *points* Did you make a mistake?"

The waitress said, " Oh it's cooked using the essence of the 3 kinds of egg!! So it's still 三王蛋元菜!!"

I was HORRIFIED!! She was lying blatantly before me!! And I retorted, " Do you even see ANY TRACE of EGGS in there?" *stare WIDED EYE at the waitress* So they came up with a new and futuristic way of cooking eggs in their shell and yet squeezed the essence of the egg out or did they change it to hard boiled egg, hard boiled salted egg and hard boiled century egg and reused and kept it in a soup stock?? Please google a picture of a 3 egg spinach dish,and in any vaguest picture you can see the 3 kinds of EGGS!!! (look at the picture I googled right at the top)

She replies, " but the chef says it's 三王蛋元菜, so it is." Yea, someone else might have ordered it but definately not us and we did not order nor ate that dish and we still had to pay up that extra $9 for the bogus dish. And you know what, the Hor Fun which cost only $6 had sliced fish, sotong, prawn and meat. I would have shoved them into their graves if my dad hadn't stopped me. * I have Authorized authoritative power*

The issue here isn't paying the extra money, but how dishonest and unscrupulous these stall holders get now just to cheat the money out of their customers. Remember the Famous Tiger Prawn incident at Novena Food?!

Well, at the least if you want to venture into a service industry which depend heavily on customers, make your customers happy. Only good food won't keep us. Learn the etiquette and be careful of taboos.


Thursday, July 29, 2010

Can you meet me half way - Black Eyed Peas

Can you meet me half way (I'll meet you halfway)
Right at the boarderline
That's where i'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

Let's walk the bridge, to the other side
Just you and I (just you and I)
I will fly, i'll fly the skies, for you and I (for you and I)
I will try, until I die, for you and i, for you and i, for for you and i,
For for you and i, for for you and i, for you and i

Can you meet me half way
Can you meet me half way
Can you meet me half way
Can you meet me half way
Meet me half way, right at the boarderline
That's where i'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

I tried. I'm devastated. I regenerated. I act well. Whatever I do is meaningless and futile. Your existence is my poison.
Fuming and raging, the cursed hell fire grows. Until you incinerate, I shall not be satisfied. - Rising Phoenix

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Fade Away by Me

Yet another composition which popped into my head, penned it all down b4 I forget it. The ironical thing is that I'll remember wadever melody I composed but not memories. =p

Fade Away

Got startled awake in the middle of the night
Snapped open my eyes to find
that I have been crying all the time
It didn't at all seem any real to me
'Cause I couldn't remember what was
being played out in my dreams

Sometimes~ I just can't remember , the message in my dreams
It's just so hard~ to remember, the times we spent together, you and me...
Fade away, fade away~ Fade away, fade away~
Fade away, fade away~ Fade away, fade away~

Dazing away as I listened to the old clock ticked
Glanced my eyes aside to find
a watch lying at the corner of my desk
The unmoving face stared right back at me
And I just couldn't remember
the times spent together, you and me

Sometimes~ I just can't remember , clips of my memory
It's just so hard~ to remember, the times we spent together, you and me...
Fade away, fade away~ Fade away, fade away~
Fade away, fade away~ Fade away, fade away~

Strolling along in the city crowd
Spinning around to find familiar places
Mirages of cloud seem to fill these spaces
Looking around now I see foreign faces
But I just couldn't remember,
Couldn't remember, couldn't remember
Couldn't REMEMBER!!!!!!!

Sometimes~ I just can't remember , can't remember~
It's just so hard~ to remember, the times we spent together, you and me...
Fade away, fade away~ Fade away, fade away~
Fade away, fade away~ Fade away, fade away~
Fade away, fade away~ Fade away, fade away~
Fade away, fade away~ Fade away, fade away~

Music feel- guitar solo, soft and dreamy , trance like mode

Saturday, May 22, 2010

It will never be the same again

Time moves on and things change everyday, nothing will ever be the same.
Pessimism is for yesterday, optimism is for today and tomorrow.
Forget about the missed stops, and think about the future destinations you have to reach.
Not every destination you see will be the "designated destination", thus you gotta keep
moving on to the next and keep knocking on the next door or opportunity.
Once you threw a chance away, you can't take it back.
The only way left is to work harder and wait for the next to come by.
Set your goals in the front and don't turn to look back, running forward while turning the head back will only cause you to trip and hurt yourself.
There will always be a point of time in life when all good things come to an end, people part ways and set off in different paths thereafter.
It's better to be independent and exist for yourself. Focus on yourself first. Only when you can fully take care of yourself then can you look out for others.
Self above all.

Looks easy, try it yourself.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Haven't been so happy for awhile ~~



Yesterday, I met up with Ting and Hui Hui after work. I went to get a new pixie hair cut at Chapter 2 to salvage the horrible hair trimming job I received last week at BEDOK INTERCHANGE, WHITE HOUSE. The hairstylist at Chapter 2 was really pleasant and professional, really left me a good impression on Chapter 2's service.

Following that, we had a sumptuous dinner in Xin Wang Cafe. I had a pot of spicy minced pork porrigde and a GIGANTIC STRAWBERRY SNOW ICE LOL (which I didn't manage to finish,
sakit hati~~!!!) We had loads of fun taking pics and enjoyed the scenery at esplanade ^^


I clowning all the way~~ wooo huuuu~~


Sunday, March 28, 2010

Alive

I couldn't sleep last night and I was hit by a sudden wave of inspiration to write another song lyrics. Only parts of the melody ring in me, this feels crappier than the previous job. Well but it's in English. I just wrote out what came to mind at the point in time, didn't really edit it. So I'll preview this n then get some sleep hohoho

Presenting ALIVE.

Spacing out in a cold and lonely night
Chill slowly engulfs me from the outside
There's just something here right in me
which is merging into this endless night
Fading out slowly with the light, I'm slowly losing my sight.

All alone hidden and locked away
I listened to the whispers of the silent night
Cold has numbed and paralyzed my senses
even my heart seized to beat from time to time
No longer feeling the beat, am I still alive?~ E I E I E I!

To feel alive, To feel alive
I had to feast on rotting memories
Feeling the pain, To feel alive
Thorns pricking deeper and deeper into me
Aching from all the pain and soaked blood red,
I will know that I'm still alive.

Sometimes I feel like a doll, void of emotions
Long forgotten and casted aside
As cold as ice, as brittle as glass
I just can't move, I just can't breathe
But I'm bursting into tears inside

As time passed by, the morning sun began to rise
Warm rays from the sun stung me hard
making me teary in the eyes
I held my head high and endured
the pain from open wounds

There and then I swore... not to cry~E I E I E I!

To feel alive, To feel alive
I had to feast on rotting memories
Feeling the pain, To feel alive
Thorns pricking deeper and deeper into me
Twisting and struggling, all shattered inside
I need pull through, to stay alive.
But now, I began to realise...
The sun will never rise again, in my life...
The sun will never rise again...


Mood: Zombie-fied , edited lyrics seem to flow much better now

Saturday, March 6, 2010

巫师 by me

巫师 作词:陈彩盈

初次遇见你的时侯 身体有了触电感觉
自己好像吃错了药 看着你竟脸红心跳
天真又爱耍酷的我 深信这只是场错觉
但隔了许久又见面 心也再次为你起舞
到了如今我才发现 你是会施法的巫师
将我建立起的城堡 不费力轻易地打碎

我不要 我不要 被你施下诅咒
可是我 可是我 已经被你迷惑
放开我 放开我 请你还我自由
可是我 可是我 可是我~
无法逃离你给的链锁

原本非常自私的我 也开始学会了让步
不管是欢笑或痛苦 温暖依燃打动着我
天真又爱耍酷的我 开始相信爱地存在
在一起度过地时光 转眼变成一场荒境
到了如今我才发现 你是会施法的巫师
将我带到梦境乐园 眨眼间把一切抹掉

我不要 我不要 变成你的俘虏
可是我 可是我 已经被你训服
离开我 离开我 是种人间折磨
可是我 可是我 无法逃离链锁

我不要 我不要 没有你的生活
因为我 因为我 无法扯断链锁
也许我 也许我 已经走火入魔
疯狂地 咆哮着 也要把你拖下地狱的炎火!

It's not perfected yet, subjected to change. At least this is the general idea atm. Music is in the process of composing.

Mood:Mad and Devouring Flames

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Ironically, Happy Birthday to Myself lol

OK, I will sing*type* myself a song today...

Happy Birthday to ME,
Happy Birthday to ME!
Happy Birthday to ME-EEE!!!
Happy Birthday to ME, ME, ME, ME ,ME!!

haha jus being bored, since it's been awhile i updated my blog.

Watched Alice in Wonderland today. Was really great. A nice Self Present too =) *reminds me to believe in the impossible, even if others think u r crazy, BELIEVE IN URSELF*

Daddy treated me to Japanese A la carte~ So full n bloated from sashimi.

I might not be able to have a happy birthday anymore in the future. Oh wells, Bday is jus like any other day anyway =/

Was suddenly inspired to compose a song today. I'm barely 50% done. I have no idea how to go about writing one either, but I'm gonna come up with it somehow. The feeling is just burning in me, and the melody flows in. I hope I won't lose this "feel" b4 my song is completed. LOL