Sakurairo Mau Koro

Weather and Me

The Weather relfects my mood so closely nowadays.
I do not know, perhaps, I was influence by it.
Ominious grey clouds covered the sky, threatening to rain.
Yet on the opposite side of the sky, the sun continues to shine and give us the warmth.
I can't help but to think,"Indeed, the weather is an expression of my true internal feelings."
Countless of unspoken reasons clouded my mind,
but to live on every day, I willed myself to stay under the light - to be with you.

Perhaps, I seeked comfort in the unpredictable weather.
The zooming draft chilled the excruciating pain living in my little body.
My heart stopped beating a moment under the icy grip; it felt soothing.
The resistence against the wind told me,"Just give up, you are tired already..."
Again, I continued to push forward but where am I heading?

The sky poured, as if crying in place for me.
It felt good, like some excess and unwanted energy found a way of release in me.
However, no matter how much is released, it just kept coming back to me.
Every night, silent tears found their way out of my eyes.
"Why," I wondered, "have the unpredictable weather possessed me?"

The sun will shine after the rain. Maybe I'll even be lucky and see a rainbow.
Can I believe?
Do you understand me?


Mood: Dull blue